I was reminded of the space between. The space beside and the space unseen.
Forgiveness takes me there. Being present without the need to change, takes me there. I don't want to react anymore. I want to be beyond someone else's jerk reaction. I want to be beyond my own. I want the power of an aikido master. The power that comes with specificity and flow.
I'm taking 30 days of silence, which really means not speaking unless there is a purpose to it. More specifically, not speaking up when I feel belittled, violated, insulted or otherwise. I've become too reactive and I want to get back in touch with the spaciousness.
Once I have that discipline again, I'll start speaking up in the right way.
Start speaking up from an unbreakable clarity. Unbreakable love.